And i think i know why, it’s because i didn’t rely on someone else to make me happy. I didn’t seek out the attention that i wasn’t going to get and then think and think and think about it. i was happy today, and i made that decision. And it’s a big deal for me. I can’t quite explain it, and i sound stupid i know, but this used to be me. This was how i used to be and then something happened.There was not a moment where i changed but somehow over time i did. But there are days like these when i feel how i used to. Fuck it feels so much better than crying and thinking. Anywho time to walk Fergus, i thought i would be able to buy him a little friend by the end of the year, but sausage dogs are fucking expensive! who knew?

also ily Campbell!!